reading the following has helped me tremendusly in trying to understand the hows and whys this has happened to me and why most doctors will have none of it.
David Hume: mitigated skeptacism or the academical philosophy
Antoine Lavoisier: preface to Elemants of chemistry
John Locke: book1 chapter1and 2 of "concerning human understanding"
and for understanding some of my actions before I understood what had happened to me:
Thomas Aquinas in his "Treatise on Human Acts" I came to understand some of my reactions.
understanding what was going on around me has always been important to me and these great works from the past have led me to understanding and accepting much of this and allowed me some piece of mind. They may be helpful to many of you as well.