Hi there Julie.
I'm pleased to hear that you will take a slower approach and you must really try to detach yourself from the symptoms while you are reading the posts for the first time, if or when you go back to a post, it will not be such a big shock and you will be able to see things in a less responsive way. I used to get myself worked up and get angry when I read some of what has happened to folk here, especially when I could see that the exact same things applied to myself on many occasions. You have to learn to take a step back and not get too involved while reading things, it doesn't mean you don't care, but it does stop you from making yourself ill with worry.
As for the statins, we were all hoodwinked with them, and how they were the the best thing since sliced bread. A lot of the doctors I have seen are now aware of some of the problems but many can't accept that they have caused such a diverse amount of conditions as we have found out from experience in posters on this site and others like it.
Your Dad must be one hell of a man to get a tree that big down, I had some connifers that got to about 15 feet as I was unable to trim them because of the weather etc, I bought an electric chainsaw and took them down and I was like death warmed up by the time I did that. That was about 6 years ago when I was around 46 (he really does put me to shame)
Anyhow take care of yourself and as you have said everything looks worse in the darkness of night, even more so if you let things get to you. You also sound like a really Lovely person too, your husband also sounds like a pretty good guy, remember though that us blokes want and need to be able to protect the ones we love, call it male ego or whatever, a bit of reassurance and the odd hug sometimes helps us blokes to cope in situations like this too.
All the very best and have a good weekend,
Allen
PS guess who's got the flu!, my grandson gave me it for Xmas